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hey aLL, its bEEn a while since i last update my blog, a while??????? correction.. its been a year i guess.. credit goes to diaa fariza ... oops sorry salah pic lak haha wan, finally ko berjaye gak pakse aku post something here.. well frankly i dunno where to start.. i think thats all for now maybe i shud take a nap first then cont later.. till then xoxo

I LOVE YOU MOM

My mom only had one eye.
I hated her...
She was such an embarrassment. .
She cooked for students & teachers to support the family.
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came toSay hello to me.
I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me?
I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said,
"EEEE, your mom only has one eye!"
I wanted to bury myself.
I also wanted my mom to just disappear..
I confronted her that day and said,
" If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?"
My mom did not respond....
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, becauseI was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.
I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married.
I bought a house of my own.
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts,
Then one day, myMother came to visit me.
She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her Grandchildren.
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at
Her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her,
"How dare you come to my house and scare myChildren!
"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"
And to this, my mother quietly answered,
"Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,"
And she disappeared out of sight..
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house..
So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion,
I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.
My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear..
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have..
"My dearest son,I think of you all the time.
I'm sorry that I came to your house andS scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see.........
when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
As a mother,
I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in myPlace, with that eye.
With all my love to you,
Your mother..

i'LL wAit u thERe..

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes,
i'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes i'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, what's up, what's up, what's up
Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
Girl, i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe i go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl i want, i, i, i want you right nowI travel uptown (town) i travel downtown
I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway... way
Can you meet me half way (i'll meet you halfway)
Right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and i (just you and i)
I will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and i (for you and i)
I will try, until i die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
For for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wishI can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

tOdAY..hERe i AM

hEre i AM



agAIn..

erm tOday i wanT tO shARe bOUt my fwEn



nO 1



a gAL

cHANtIK

pErangaI poN chANtiQ

bErtuah lakI yg dapat dIe nh

erm & shE juz sO strONg

i dUn carE

wat peoplE want to labEl hEr xmAtang or watsoeva pOn

bcoz pEople dunno hEr

dUnO the pAIn dat shE gOIng thrU

sUmtime aku kaGum ngan die

kalO aku cakp depan2 kompem kembang pnyE die

bUt rEally..

i admire hEr couragE

bUt tuhan POn adIl

tuhan hantar lElaki yg baek utk sYG die

kawan yg baek n syg die eVEnthOugh slalu susahkan die(aku la TUh)

luarAnnyE, hEr life almost pErfect :

grEAt JOb, family,friENds & bF

bUt dengan segala dUgaan yg die teRime,

i would say

& fOR nOw i lEt hEr enjoY thE mOmEnt

thaT hE rEAlly EnjOy foR thE first TIme

+ shE is mIssiNg sum1

ShE dEservE it

jUZ my advIce :



jGN mAIN dgN aPI

nnt knE panggIl bOMba





no 2



Dis Guy..

MY BeSFReN

its QuitE sumtIMe sInce i donT tAlk tO him

i miSS hIm

but aftEraLL maybe i madE mistAke

maybE so do hIm

maybe we bLAme each other

whO knows

coz i dun

as i stIll dUn hv chance to confrONt him

i do apologize

trY to gEt thINg rIght

bUt suMtime

sumthIng

is juz a mAtter of tIme

hopE..

1 FInE daY

evErythIng gOna b ok



fOR u...

i am sORY ok...



nO 3



dIS gAL

shE's suFFering noW
i knEW it

vERy weLL

i try to gIv hEr timea as shE request..

bUt she's alwEz in my hearT..

my mINd

hopEFUlly

shE'LL b strOng EnUF

& x gEt LOst



b sTRoNG gAL....



no 4



dIS gUy

cOme out of nowhERe

haV a hATI yg handsOMe

as fAr as i know HIm

as Per tOday la kan

gIV me a shIne

................

.................

EnjOY his cOmpany

i'LL resERve my thOught foR him latER

=)



hEy U

i hOpE diS woUld lAst LonG.... ;p





dIs PeoplE cOLoR mY lifE wiT thEir attItudes, thEir prEsence,

wARMtH..



HopE gOd will alweZ bLESS us

bTw: i juz Finish my rEAdINg

'JUst 1 Look'

lifE is fULL of supRIse huh?

tIll thEN c ya

mY poInt oF vIew

hEy aLL..

hurm instEAd oF talking bOut mysElf
toDay i wOUld likE to shAre
wHAt i sEE d wOrLd frOm my EyeS..
fRAnKlY..
i wOUld sAy nOW is d ENd f d wOrld alReaDy
i MEan fOR all d mUslIM we knOw lah..
Dis ids duNie akhir zAman
TOO mANy thIng haPPeN
as waT wrITTEn in thE Al- Quran
of cOurse sUm time i gEt scAred bUT most of d time
i WAs tOO bz Too thInk bOut it..
and aume moRe even though ak INgat
d FEEling oF fear
sEkejap je datang..
tHEn akU kembaLI lalai..
lALai ngan dUniE
anD all its ganes
i'm tOO bz tOO survive
wiThout tHInking
btw bLE2 poN ktE bOle matI
and i dUN thINk
i'vE preparED mysEL:f fOR it
iF only i dIE afTErwaRd or mb tOmorrOW '
cane aKU nAk HADAP..
tAKOT sgT!!!!!!!!!!!
liFE after dEAth
is EterniTy
hu..
hOpEfUlly
sIKit dEmi siKIt
akU dapat bawak bekal
GOD
plz hELp mE

my lifE QuotE

i tOOK a Quiz and dis is wAt i gEt:

Your Result: Don't be so quick to judge me.

You always have people judging you before they even get to know you, even if you may show an attitude towards people, thats what you choose to show, But people tend to judge you as mean, rude, and selfish. You probably try to ignore it as much as possible, but can't because it hurts you on the inside. Maybe you should try to show a little bit more that your attitude

weLL i guess its trUE 4 mOst part..

bAd nEWS..

last nItE bfOre tItOn.. akU bcE bUkU jOHn grEy...
hurm kat c2 die tulis sumtIme ktE sendrIk sabOtagE ourcreLationshIp
coZ most wOmen yG kEciWa akan pK' Dis is another mEn whOse incapable tp cOMMit'
i tOtally agrEE yG i do hav dis kind of mentality
sumtime
and the bOOk said,Once mEn gEt frustatEd, They ll thInk dAT
' its just another wOman wHich hard to plEasE and tAkE awaY thEir frEEdOm'
WEn bOth siDE pk cani.. sampai ble poN tak ke mane..
then aK bcE lG
its totally natural to get to know sum1, fall in luv and Find out that they are not the 1
well dats might b right
i talkl to frEn bOut dis and hE does his own opinion which i respect..
aftEr all, eveRYTHING COMe UP FROM OUR MINDSET
sO i gUess i nEEd to bE moRe posiTive
evEn though dis MOning
PG2 lg as i started my day
i got massage whIch say
' Dukacita dimaklumkan anda tIdak berjaya'
pHEW...
i got frUstated
BUt then
as i"vE lEarn last niTe
i have tO stay pOsiTive to cREate the posiTivE environtment
wEll thanx to fRen for d advIse and 4 thOse whO stIck wIth me
mAy gOD blESS u..