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ComEbacK******

2011-04-01T09:16:00.000-07:00

hey aLL, its bEEn a while since i last update my blog, a while??????? correction.. its been a year i guess.. credit goes to diaa fariza ... oops sorry salah pic lak haha wan, finally ko berjaye gak pakse aku post something here.. well frankly i dunno where to start.. i think thats all for now maybe i shud take a nap first then cont later.. till then xoxo

2009-11-25T02:59:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU MOM

My mom only had one eye.
I hated her...
She was such an embarrassment. .
She cooked for students & teachers to support the family.
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came toSay hello to me.
I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me?
I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said,
"EEEE, your mom only has one eye!"
I wanted to bury myself.
I also wanted my mom to just disappear..
I confronted her that day and said,
" If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?"
My mom did not respond....
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, becauseI was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.
I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married.
I bought a house of my own.
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts,
Then one day, myMother came to visit me.
She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her Grandchildren.
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at
Her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her,
"How dare you come to my house and scare myChildren!
"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"
And to this, my mother quietly answered,
"Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,"
And she disappeared out of sight..
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house..
So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion,
I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.
My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear..
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have..
"My dearest son,I think of you all the time.
I'm sorry that I came to your house andS scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see.........
when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
As a mother,
I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in myPlace, with that eye.
With all my love to you,
Your mother..

i'LL wAit u thERe..

2009-11-12T18:12:00.000-08:00

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes,
i'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes i'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, what's up, what's up, what's up
Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
Girl, i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe i go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl i want, i, i, i want you right nowI travel uptown (town) i travel downtown
I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway... way
Can you meet me half way (i'll meet you halfway)
Right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and i (just you and i)
I will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and i (for you and i)
I will try, until i die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
For for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wishI can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

tOdAY..hERe i AM

2009-11-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

hEre i AM

agAIn..

erm tOday i wanT tO shARe bOUt my fwEn

nO 1

a gAL

cHANtIK

pErangaI poN chANtiQ

bErtuah lakI yg dapat dIe nh

erm & shE juz sO strONg

i dUn carE

wat peoplE want to labEl hEr xmAtang or watsoeva pOn

bcoz pEople dunno hEr

dUnO the pAIn dat shE gOIng thrU

sUmtime aku kaGum ngan die

kalO aku cakp depan2 kompem kembang pnyE die

bUt rEally..

i admire hEr couragE

bUt tuhan POn adIl

tuhan hantar lElaki yg baek utk sYG die

kawan yg baek n syg die eVEnthOugh slalu susahkan die(aku la TUh)

luarAnnyE, hEr life almost pErfect :

grEAt JOb, family,friENds & bF

bUt dengan segala dUgaan yg die teRime,

i would say

& fOR nOw i lEt hEr enjoY thE mOmEnt

thaT hE rEAlly EnjOy foR thE first TIme

+ shE is mIssiNg sum1

ShE dEservE it

jUZ my advIce :

jGN mAIN dgN aPI

nnt knE panggIl bOMba

no 2

Dis Guy..

MY BeSFReN

its QuitE sumtIMe sInce i donT tAlk tO him

i miSS hIm

but aftEraLL maybe i madE mistAke

maybE so do hIm

maybe we bLAme each other

whO knows

coz i dun

as i stIll dUn hv chance to confrONt him

i do apologize

trY to gEt thINg rIght

bUt suMtime

sumthIng

is juz a mAtter of tIme

hopE..

1 FInE daY

evErythIng gOna b ok

fOR u...

i am sORY ok...

nO 3

dIS gAL

shE's suFFering noW
i knEW it

vERy weLL

i try to gIv hEr timea as shE request..

bUt she's alwEz in my hearT..

my mINd

hopEFUlly

shE'LL b strOng EnUF

& x gEt LOst

b sTRoNG gAL....

no 4

dIS gUy

cOme out of nowhERe

haV a hATI yg handsOMe

as fAr as i know HIm

as Per tOday la kan

gIV me a shIne

................

.................

EnjOY his cOmpany

i'LL resERve my thOught foR him latER

=)

hEy U

i hOpE diS woUld lAst LonG.... ;p

dIs PeoplE cOLoR mY lifE wiT thEir attItudes, thEir prEsence,

wARMtH..

HopE gOd will alweZ bLESS us

bTw: i juz Finish my rEAdINg

'JUst 1 Look'

lifE is fULL of supRIse huh?

tIll thEN c ya

mY poInt oF vIew

2009-08-12T00:16:00.000-07:00

hEy aLL..

hurm instEAd oF talking bOut mysElf
toDay i wOUld likE to shAre
wHAt i sEE d wOrLd frOm my EyeS..
fRAnKlY..
i wOUld sAy nOW is d ENd f d wOrld alReaDy
i MEan fOR all d mUslIM we knOw lah..
Dis ids duNie akhir zAman
TOO mANy thIng haPPeN
as waT wrITTEn in thE Al- Quran
of cOurse sUm time i gEt scAred bUT most of d time
i WAs tOO bz Too thInk bOut it..
and aume moRe even though ak INgat
d FEEling oF fear
sEkejap je datang..
tHEn akU kembaLI lalai..
lALai ngan dUniE
anD all its ganes
i'm tOO bz tOO survive
wiThout tHInking
btw bLE2 poN ktE bOle matI
and i dUN thINk
i'vE preparED mysEL:f fOR it
iF only i dIE afTErwaRd or mb tOmorrOW '
cane aKU nAk HADAP..
tAKOT sgT!!!!!!!!!!!
liFE after dEAth
is EterniTy
hu..
hOpEfUlly
sIKit dEmi siKIt
akU dapat bawak bekal
GOD
plz hELp mE

my lifE QuotE

2009-08-12T00:13:00.000-07:00

i tOOK a Quiz and dis is wAt i gEt:

Your Result: Don't be so quick to judge me.

You always have people judging you before they even get to know you, even if you may show an attitude towards people, thats what you choose to show, But people tend to judge you as mean, rude, and selfish. You probably try to ignore it as much as possible, but can't because it hurts you on the inside. Maybe you should try to show a little bit more that your attitude

weLL i guess its trUE 4 mOst part..

bAd nEWS..

2009-08-10T20:08:00.000-07:00

last nItE bfOre tItOn.. akU bcE bUkU jOHn grEy...
hurm kat c2 die tulis sumtIme ktE sendrIk sabOtagE ourcreLationshIp
coZ most wOmen yG kEciWa akan pK' Dis is another mEn whOse incapable tp cOMMit'
i tOtally agrEE yG i do hav dis kind of mentality
sumtime
and the bOOk said,Once mEn gEt frustatEd, They ll thInk dAT
' its just another wOman wHich hard to plEasE and tAkE awaY thEir frEEdOm'
WEn bOth siDE pk cani.. sampai ble poN tak ke mane..
then aK bcE lG
its totally natural to get to know sum1, fall in luv and Find out that they are not the 1
well dats might b right
i talkl to frEn bOut dis and hE does his own opinion which i respect..
aftEr all, eveRYTHING COMe UP FROM OUR MINDSET
sO i gUess i nEEd to bE moRe posiTive
evEn though dis MOning
PG2 lg as i started my day
i got massage whIch say
' Dukacita dimaklumkan anda tIdak berjaya'
pHEW...
i got frUstated
BUt then
as i"vE lEarn last niTe
i have tO stay pOsiTive to cREate the posiTivE environtment
wEll thanx to fRen for d advIse and 4 thOse whO stIck wIth me
mAy gOD blESS u..

gREAt wEEkENd bUT..

2009-08-09T21:32:00.000-07:00

afTEr bEEn thru tiring mONths.. i wOuld sAY dis wEEkEnd is tHE best weekEnd i eVer had dis feW MOnTH.. IT STARTeD UP WIF GReAT INTERViEW ON FrIDAY.. duN minD if i gOt the jOb or nOt.. i arDy gIVE aLL ouT & no reGrET.. bUt stILL i Put soME hOPE as i REally xcIted tO gEt inTo this nU iNdustry..

aftErward, i shARed a VEry qUAlity timE wIf suM of my frENs whIch has bEEn lOSt for seVEral years.. its fEEl so Gud to shARe the laughtEr

but i thINk d Most excITing pARt is tO mEET suM1 aftEr lOng yEArs juZ tO fInd oUt i FALL for him.. God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im in a really bIg trOUblE dis tIMe cOz i THinK i Couldnt Hide my excItEment and over reAct...i duNNo how to make Thing right coZ i thINk i'vE bEEn cOMplEtely bE A FOOL in fROnT of HIm.. i sHOulDnt fALL to anyone dis mOmENt coZ i rEally gOT a lot of thIng to do but i jUZ cOUlDNt hELP it..thInk AgaIN, i knOW i shOUlD bEhavE..cOz nOW i mIGHt LOst HIM fOREvE 4 my sILLy MIStakE..gOD plZ hELp..JuZ hOPE i wOUld gET ovEr IT..

bUt thank to mY gF wHich ask mE oUT fr shOpping sprEE and mOviE,
i do had gOOd timE wiF thEm..but as my bOdy wit thEm, i stILL kEpt thINking 4 dat gUy..i'm so ConfUSe anD cLueless..anD as usUal.. my LUv sTOry Will complEtely TuRn into disastEr.. WeLL, hE mIGht knOW dat i LikE hiM bUT i dun think he had any idea thAT i'vE fall fOr him dis mUch..

pHEW..

i gUess i nEED hELP

jUz drOB bY

2009-08-05T23:03:00.000-07:00

heY Ya..

its bEEn a while aKu x tUlis papE dalam nh..

nothing much dis timE

sum moRe, im x fEEling weLL also..

i'm in d prOses of rEarrAngE my liFe yG nga da bErtErabur into pieCes

juz likE nga sUsuN puzzlE

so i hAd to figUre out the stratEgy

hari nh satu bnde da settle..aku da renew road tax

within dis week ak nak mencarik nU jOb dengan pERtolongan rakan2

dis wknD aku da start nak pindah barang kat uma tini

cme dat part i;m not suRe..

atas desakan fAmily

they insist sOh aku balik jb

bUt i'm kinda afraid

takot susah nak carik tune kat saner

eventhough dats my hometown

tp aku nh kan membesa dijalanan

so i dun really familiar wit dat area

d environtment

d people

yes.. i had my family back there

bUt.. taula

aku nh kan konon2 nak indepEndent sgT..

stubborn

i dun like people decide 4 my lIfe

i wAnt it to bE my own

macam sombong boDOH PON ADE

HAHA..

cume seboleh2nye aku taknak susakan family aku

im big gal now

unlEss if dat was d fInal option..

LUV???

i dO nEED Luv

bUt 4 d mOMent frOm my fAmily n fWeN da cUkup kot

bf?

i dun thInk so

stakAt fLirt bOle la kOt

coz sumtime i need company..

sound selfish isn't it?

mMg bEsh la kalo time cani aku adE bF yG bolE shARe

evrythIng ngan aku,

cUme

i dun think dis is d rIghT timE..

cOz dikala SerabOt nh akU x wAse aku bole jagE hati orG

i dun want to makE stUpiD mistaKe

or mEnyerabOtkan lg kpALe ngan

lUv mATters yG sumtime xbapE logIk nh

tOmoRRow...

hopEfully mIracle happeN

sumthing unexpected..

yg sumhow

bOle menyetelkaN akU pnyE puzzlE nh

hurm..

But aku pon xley dok saJE

i hav to put eFFoRT gak

cHAIYOK

GAmBATe!!!!!!!!!!

hAhA....

hOpIng 4 beTTEr tomoROW

cHOW..

mONOloG..i.m LosT

2009-07-14T20:12:00.000-07:00

wEd 15 JuLy 2009

11.15 a.m

my iNNer cOnfLict

OtAkkU

sGt bErcElaru tImE nh

sGt kUsUt kU wAse..

bLE ak fIKirkAn bAlik sUmE mASAlah aku

i'vE enjOy my fREns cOmpany lAtEly

bUT..

blE ak Dok SensoWAng bAlik

ak mUlE tERpIKir

masaLah aku yAng tAkAt nh mAcam

mEnUju kE dEAd End

WAt evA iT is akU knE

cOnfRont my pRob

trY to fiGuRE ouT thE bEst sOlUTion

bUkannyE mengElak

bUt d tHing is,

mAmpu ker

ak nAk hAdap bNde nh all by mysElf

i Dun thInk sO

eGokah akU sEbab xnAk

mEnyUsAHkaN orANG?

hypOcrit kE akU

bLe kAT matE orANg

sEEm tO bE fUn

yEt

dEEp insIde iTs sO empTy

sEEm tO bE sO strOng

bUT..

sO fRAGilE insIdE

wArm

yEt sO cOld...

sEEm tO bE iNdEpEndAnt

hakIkaTnyE..

i rEly oN lUv pEopLe suRRounD mE

tUlah pUncE kEkuATan akU

or mAybE akU nh tErlAlu bErhAti2

tOO scArEd tO bE hURt

bUt mb dAt lEAd mE

to cHoosE wrOng fRom rIghT

i DUnno

mOst of d tiME

i FAilEd to undERstaNd mySElF

i'm Lost In my oWn wOrld

sO gUyz..

wAt i nEEd is

ur luv

ur sUPPOrt

tO fInd me wAy bAck hOmE

lUv yA..

HoHon Ho

2009-07-14T02:00:00.000-07:00

Miz took the quiz What Kind of Kisser Are You? and the result is You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but for you, it's all about quality and not quantity.
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off.
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave.
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable.

2009-07-11T05:25:00.000-07:00

jAm skAng kOl 8.46 pM
LokAsi: Q bIstrO

hurm ak wAsE skAng dA almOst EbrydAy ak dOk Q-bistRo dOw..
sAmbIl mEmbUat bLog huhu
pErmAnEnt rEsident ak nGan sHam..
membEr LEn sIlih bErgAnti la..
HOhO
aRi nh akU lEpAk nGAn
zErA n mEmbEr2 bArU
yG sHam bR kenAlkAn
cAm bEsH gAk r..
cOz dAk2 nH oFFer kTrG lUbAng nak wAt bIsnEs
xdE r lUbAng bEsa sGt lA..
tApi bOley sGt la takat kAlo tAkAt nAk wAt sIdE iNcomE..

td pEtAng dAlam KOl 4 ak p bEngkEl kEtE kat sElayanG tu..
amEk kEtE kEsayAngAnkU LUvY

sAmpAi2 jEk bEngKel td aku TersEnyUm lEbAr cOz nAmpAk Luvy..
hOhO..
sEnang aTi akU akHirnYe kEREtAku
sElamAt saMpai dI paNgkuAnkU
huhu

टेस्टिंग 123

2009-07-10T03:19:00.000-07:00

nh aku pun x ingat percubaan kali pertama atu kali ke 2

tapi nh kire percubaan yg serius r konon@ utk ak menceburkan dri dalam bidang पेम्ब्लोगन

skang kol 8.27 mlm ak nga lepak ngan sham ngan SPINSONS kat Q BISTRO AREa UMA अकू

SI spinson X ABeS2 PERASAN AMEK GAMBA SYOK SENDRI DIE SAMBIL MEMBACA मेनू

DARIPADA cOVER SAMPAI BELAKANG TP DRPD TD AKU TGK DIE X ODER2 pon die juz minum air nEscaPe je॥

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skang die ngah amek gamba aku ngan sham yg nga kusut इनी

sape sham? adelah sekor makhluk नि

membeku yang tengah serabot memikirkan mase depan

ak xley kutuk lebey2 cozn aku nga gne laptop die disamping die bace blog yg ak nga wat nh

drpd td mke die kusut jek..

ak pon Da taytAw nak ckp pE

smoge die amEk bErkat mlm jUmaat nh dpT ketenangan time tdo nt

yela pg esok die nak grk pi mlake da

tp tu pon kalo last@ minit die xtuka plan n bangon awal la..

die pon ckp'ak pon xtaw ak bole tdo mlm nh"

aku xterurus skang..

pastu tbe@ die puji wifi kat cni..

tp ak wase kalo die.....

malam nh kompem die bole tdo pnye

paham@la mlm jumaat

sham hanye tersengih malu

Spinson tgh termenung sebab anEy kdi da rampas menu yang die sebok nbelek td

chentaku x talipon pon drpd td

ak wase die titon kot

xpela biarlah die RIP

shAm nh tbE2 sebok pk canE nak amEk awek die kat airport nx wk

kalo bole sume bnde die nk pk skang..

padehal kpale ade 2 je..

tbE2 taliponku berbunyik,,

wAh, cHentaku

tapi pastu putus la pLak

xpe aku tgu jap..

hah die da tepon blk,, sambung cite..

tBe2 sham nampak sorang awEk bAju kaler putih soh aku usha kan utk die

ak ckp ko nyanyi la lagu nh sebelah die

wah cunnya

mmg cUn

bArangan malaysia

bElum cUbA bElum tAhU

sUda cuBa pasti mahu
pastu dan2 si apai menyampuk

japgi konyanyi camtu awek indon upenye

ktrg pon gelak

sham sambung termenung sambil odEr air lg

si sPinsoN dOk sebok bErmsg2 drpd td

pEnAntIan SAtU pEnyiksAAn

2009-07-10T03:12:00.000-07:00

LovEdiS sOngdAmNmUcH

dIs mOning sEAwal pagi 1 bndE jE yg akU pk

Bukak jek pC ak tewOs nak uplOd lagu nh

ak nak cElEn ngAn si spInStON

SapE lagI CEpAt

lAgu nh BEsH gILE

si sPAStRick yg kEnALkan ngan aku

tp die sendri xTAw apE tItle n SapE sinGer

hoHo

pEnAt ak mEncarI akHirnyE ku tEmui

ak Puas

hahaha

kEtawa Jahat

hElplESS

2009-07-09T20:52:00.000-07:00

9.47 a.m

hp aku berbunyik

Bile aku angkat ak denga sore memberku yg sgt sayu

Ak kenal sore nh..

Nh adelah sore bile die dlm keadaan sgt kusut

Sally, ak da xbole nak teruskan .. keluhnye

Aku da cube.. tp aku xbole
ak dpt bygkn muke die time nh..

ak taw die sgt down time nh

denga sore die wat aku sebak..

tp ak terpkse cover line

coz time nh ak kene kuatkan semangat die

: i

ak taw die da fight..

die cube utk jage hati sume org yg die syg

ketepikan perasan sendiri

kepentingan dri

tapi ble ape yg die wat x dihargai

die da xmampu nak handle lg..

ak dpt bygkan mate die time nh berkace2

kalo bole time nh ak wase nak pelok die

give my shoulder to cry on

nak tenangkan die..

: hOldmEtIGht

at least bile die da lepaskan sume,

die wase relief..

tp ak jaoh..

ak wase helpless

ble denga rintihan die sedangkan ak xley nak wat pape..

nh la feeling paling xbesh skali

my dEar prEn..

: mypRen..

2009-07-09T20:33:00.000-07:00

itU akU